Fact or Fiction?

I won't deny finding his profession fascinating, but I created my D&D character Degolar with the intention of making him someone I would never be. That's the fun of role-playing. It's easy to make your character into your fantasy version of yourself or, alternately, make him/her into your polar opposite so you can try all the things you never let yourself do. I was hoping to create someone I'd find interesting, but someone distinct who'd be as much as possible his own person--obviously influenced by me, but not me. Lately I'm beginning to wonder . . .

Start with the fact that I call myself Degolar online (and respond without a second's hesitation to the name in person). That wasn't even my choice, it just worked out that way through the creation of the Cringing Goblin. And worked well enough to stick. Now Degolar's not just my character's name, but mine.

Degolar's main profession is that of bard. And in the pre-printing press days of oral traditions, bards were the lorekeepers. They were the walking and talking libraries who passed on legends and traditions in the form of stories and songs. And I, of course, am a librarian myself, a print and digital lorekeeper.

This connection's a bit loose, but next is the fact that Degolar is a specialist at fighting with two weapons at a time and my current athletic specialty is one that uses three sports per race.

As a bard, his greatest skill is performing. I'm not looking to get on stage or be a star, but I have to admit I've spent the last four+ years developing my storytime performance abilities and take a lot of pride in being good at it. And there is a certain celebrity status that comes with being the storytime person, something I'm reminded of daily when I hear, "It's Mr. [Degolar]," then turn with a smile and wave to find an adoring four-year-old shyly hiding behind a parent's legs.

Finally, Degolar decided to combine his impressive charisma with the Leadership feat so he could attract followers and command hearts and minds, while I now find myself moving into a leadership position in the library.

So either I failed to make him very distinct from myself and he is who I secretly wish to be or he's tired of me running him and he's decided to start role-playing my life. I wonder when I get to start using magic?